If I Were An Honest Man

 I Were An Honest Man 


*** 


If I were an honest man


I would love you 


Free from 


Trying to control


Free from 


Oretending


I am not afraid 


To be alone 


***


IfI were an honest man


I would tell you 


How I feel


Instead of 


letting you 


Guess 


What 


Is real


I would 


Give you 


My hand 


You might then


Understand 


***


I struggle 


To see


Divine spirit


If this pain


Could be


Part of a plan 


***


I struggle 


To see


Why I can 


Be selfish


Obsessed 


By my pain


Why do 


I choose


To stand out


In the rain?


*** 


I'm a battered 


Soldier


Who’s fought 


One too many 


Battles


I’m too young 


To be this tired


What is burning 


Up My 


Heart


***


If I were an honest man


I would waste 


No words


My love 


Would come 


Straight through


I would not be 


Afraid of you 


***


I pray


I will be an


Honest man


I abide reflecting


Upon my 


State of mind


Afraid of 


what is next


Coming up 


Around the 


Bend


Facing fear


Not knowing 


***


Springs bulb 


Pushes 


upward


frost 


Snow 


Patient


Still


Upward


Struggling 


Growing


Toward


Sky


Pedals 


Unfolding


Facing


Life


Head-on


Shining


Blossoming


On my way


Slowly


Becoming


An honest


Man


***


© David Penn Trinley Arndt 2022


***


Artwork by Chris Keegan 

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