If I Were A Honest Man

If I Were A Honest Man 

*** 

If I Were A Honest Man

I would love you 

Free from 

Trying to control

Free from 

Pretending

I am not afraid 

To be alone 

***

If I were an honest man

I would tell you 

How I feel

Instead of 

Letting you 

Guess 

What 

Is real

***

I struggle 

To see

Why I can 

Be selfish

Obsessed 

By my pain

Why do 

I choose

To stand out

In the rain?

***

If I were an honest man

No words

Would I waste 

They'd soothe

Your mind 

In a gentle

Embrace 

***

If I were an honest man

I would face my fear

Would not hide

My heart 

When you

Appear

***

If I were an honest man
You would not question
If my love is true

I would 

Give you 

My hand 

You might then

Understand

***

I pray

I will be an

Honest man

I abide reflecting

Upon my 

State of mind

Afraid of 

what is next

Coming up 

Around the 

Bend

Facing fear

Not knowing 

***

Springs bulb 

Pushes 

upward

frost 

Snow 

Patient

Still

Upward

Struggling 

Growing

Toward

Sky

Pedals 

Unfolding

Facing

Life

Head-on

Shining

Blossoming

On my way

Slowly

Becoming

An honest

Man

***

© David Arndt 2022

***

Artwork - Jim Warren

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