Didn't Want To Go Away

Didn't Want To Go Away


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Didn't want to go away

It was a dark dark day

When I left you

There was no other way


Sometimes I feel trapped

I  run up against another brick wall

I feel like 

I'm so small


It wasn't out of lack of love in my heart. 

No, sometimes no matter how much you love someone

No matter what you do sometimes

It doesn't  make a difference or it can make things worse than they were at the start 


I took on the world

And all that I saw

I lived my life as experience 

An experience for all

Took life as straight drink

Followed my own path

No need to think


I got lost so many times

I never thought I was gonna come back

Well I've been to Hell

I've lost my mind

But I tell you all

It's possible to survive


It wasn't out of lack of love in my heart. 

No, sometimes no matter how much you love someone

No matter what you do sometimes

It doesn't  make a difference or it can make things worse than they were at the start 


We can do so much more

Then we ever realized

When we call upon the love

That through the darkness shines


See the love shining down

Like a shooting star to my heart

Everybody's blazing fire

Feel like I'm in heaven

Floating upon a cloud


It wasn't out of lack of love in my heart. 

No, sometimes no matter how much you love someone

No matter what you do sometimes

It doesn't  make a difference or it can make things worse than they were at the start 


I look up to everybody 

And feel so much love

Whole wide world spinning around

We can let go of our fears

We can put away those Lost Years


There's No Use to hold onto those fears

It's a new beginning


Beat yourself up for too long

But that's okay

It's now time to stop


Because it's A New Path. 

It's A New Path you charge


It wasn't out of lack of love in my heart. 

No, sometimes no matter how much you love someone

No matter what you do sometimes

It doesn't  make a difference or it can make things worse than they were at the start 


I hurled myself into an abyss

But I felt I had no choice. 

If I didn't, I'd give up my life

I had too much living to do

No way. I was going to stay in strife

Now, wherever I roam

Whoever I encounter

I call my home


It wasn't out of lack of love in my heart. 

No, sometimes no matter how much you love someone

No matter what you do sometimes

It doesn't  make a difference or it can make things worse than they were at the start 



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© David Arndt  2022


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Artwork - Suitcase with hat on road at sunset by Sandra Cunningham

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