Alone I Step Out Into Night

Alone I Step Out Into Night


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Let's go out tonight

Meld yourself against me

Mind down splendor

No more reason 

I lay here amid scattered clothes

Guitar that longs to sing

Journal that calls for poems 

Signs of a struggling heart

Walls have changed 

Since she left 

Photographs 

New faces

She lives in the crevices

Her clothes on the floor crumpled 

Say I'm okay when the pain still near

No matter how fast I run

There is no escape

Whether I buy things

Smoke things

Eat things

Fill up the space with other women

I always come back here wondering 

If I'll ever understand 

As storms shake my window 

My heart beats ever more slowly

Alone I step out into night


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David Arndt 2022


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Artwork -  Waiting For A New Day by Santiago Pascual Buye


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